This week we had an interesting experience. We visited a less active this week who can do nothing other than focus on the faults and the negative things of the church. He claims to have a strong testimony but at the same time hasn't been to church in years. He said many times that God understands why he doesn't go. He claims that the Book of Mormon is full of errors and over exaggerates. He told us that as a lost sheep it is the ward and bishop's responsibility to come look for him and put him with the rest of the flock making it not his fault that he doesn't receive the blessing and happiness of the restored Gospel. Speaking with him for a little bit we decided that it would be better to let him vent and then leave. We couldn't find any words or any way to help him in his current situation...This man is blocking his ability to progress because he is blinded by his doubts and it was sad to see.
In that same day we met with a recent convert who is having trouble with her testimony. She is scared that she might have been baptized too soon and now feels bad. She talked about all of the prayers she has been doing to feel God's Love again. She decided to restart the Book of Mormon to find her answer there. She has been doing everything she could think of to not let go too soon. We felt love for her as she spoke and we felt prompted to speak about the importance of faith and the miracles that can happen when we have faith. As we finished the lesson she said, "I think it's interesting that we talked about faith. Today, I went to the Catholic Church to get help. They also spoke to me about faith. I'm sure that we were guided in that lesson to say what God wanted us to say...
There are a few things that I think are interesting here...
1. In the first lesson we didn't feel guided. Maybe because God knew that there wasn't anything we could say that would change his feelings.
2. It doesn't matter if we have doubts. It matters what we do with them.
Closing ourselves off only hurts us. Blocking our personal progress and killing us almost at the roots of our faith.
Let's not do this to ourselves.